風水輪流轉

賭徒都會相信風水輪流轉吧，其實風水輪流轉應該是世界名句！

古希臘的盛衰，古代中國的繁榮，歐洲的強大，美洲的狂大。
地球不停轉，風水也會輪流轉。

現在，是否就是風水轉挪方向盤的時候呢？
風水是否將挪到亞洲？

冷

-20度的天氣，冷的讓我不想出去
白皚皚的雪地，仿佛阻擋了目的地
生活中的樂趣，全凴自己的定義
是社會的壓力，將樂趣全都麻痹

變是永恒，但有時候，變是淚痕
‘百變天后’，‘千變形象’都在乎着變，因爲變才使得廣大觀衆有新鮮感，有趣味。
但是變得太多，是否就遺失了自我？
變，多時都不是自己想要的，而是生活上所需要的。

在新加坡，總是覺得自己是香港人，總是覺得有點格格不入，但我變
在香港，總是有人覺得我是新加坡人，我也用盡全力去融入，去變
兩年去學會我十幾年都沒講過的廣東話，我也覺得自己很不錯，適應的很好
就像變色龍般，融入社會。
但變色龍也有不適應得時候，當它到了另一個地區，不是屬於自己的地區時，它就會死，無論它怎麽適應都好，離開了自己的天氣，食物，水土，都會覺得不適應。

以靜制動，以無招勝有招，以前認爲是‘適應’的頂峰，無論有任何困難，都迎刃而解，
但現在以不變勝萬變，有著更深的一層的意思。
劉德華，張學友爲什麽到現在還有那麽多支持者？就因他們不變。
他們的不變，塑造了他們的‘自我’，讓人認清楚了他們的‘自我’也讓人非常驕傲，因爲他們堅持二十多年的‘自我’，創造了一個不變得神話。
他們堅持的不變，堅持着自我，讓人們對他們有著信心。

不變，可以讓人找到自我的價值，可以讓人放心，可以讓人依靠。
可能我需要不變，面對着身旁的万變？
但不變卻比万變難。
但我也要堅持，不變。

中秋節2007

我還記得很清楚，中秋節 2004 的那個夜晚，我和mammy 剛上玩了補習，我便去了一個面對着IMM的multi-carpark，躺在那兒賞月。單獨了一會兒后，wl打了電話給我。。。

三年過了，那夜晚的風景是否還是一樣呢？

三年過了，那月光下的人是否還是一樣呢？

三年過了，那在異鄉的我是否還是一樣呢？

孤獨，是每個人都要面對的。小時候，並沒有太多玩伴，長大后覺得自己小時很孤獨，所以很想要很多朋友。是的在2001-2004之間，確實，我離開了所謂的孤獨，徹底離開了。

但是，孤獨，使每個人都要面對的。朋友，我永遠不會忘的，但朋友，也永遠陪不了我。

是的，我就是在地球的另一端，孤獨得過着中秋節2007。看不見月餅，月餅廣告，有點不習慣，但是，月亮還是一樣，幸好。

我喜歡聼慢歌，不知道幾時喜歡上的，但是就是喜歡。雖然慢歌多數是情歌，並不代表我很多情或很多女朋友，只不過只是我最近發覺，慢歌通常都會有這種淡淡的憂傷，帶着絲絲的孤獨，緩緩的唱出來。或許這些歌非常貼切我的心情、情境，所以，是一個很好發洩自己的心情的一個渠道。

喜歡慢歌的你們，是否這樣認同呢？

如今世界發達，生活水平上升，人們的生活快樂了，所以很多快歌開始被廣大的聽衆接受，但是否只是人在逃避，利用快樂得音樂驅走心裏的惶恐，寂寞呢？

對不起，這並不是一個負面的意見，快歌的確可以將一個人的心情變得快樂，但是我覺得在寂寞的夜晚，聼着那些訴説着一些小故事的慢歌，我真正的面對了自己，面對着自己的寂寞，更加了解了自己，而且更有平復心情的療效。或許是因爲這樣，我更加了解我自己了。

總而言之，2007中秋節快樂。

成長的麻木

小時候的我，未成年的我，總會將很小的事情看得很重，任何小小的東西，跟了我久了之後，都會覺得有感情，不捨得離開它，總而言之，我很重感情，對很多事物都是感情第一。交的朋友，家人，我都想為他們好，讓他們開心，不想讓他們失望。

人類是貪心的，欲望是無盡的。

人也許會經歷過些事情，慢慢的把真實的自己，純真的自己，漸漸的隱藏起來，偷偷的戴上了面具，靜靜的面對世界。

自從我離開了274，離開了CSS，離開了獅城，我慢慢的戴上了面具了。

以前每次開學之前，我都會跟家人說很不像開學，每一次都是，可是這種感覺已經完全消失了。當我要離開香港來美國時，我的心情是空的，不是空虛，而是什麽感覺都沒有。

爲什麽？我不知道，我只是知道我已經不知道我要些什麽了。

物質上的東西，我確實想要很多，但是我知道，這並不會解決什麽，我真的很想家， 但是家的定義已經在我的心中是沒有定義的了。我只是知道，我屬於亞洲的世界。

可能是因爲欲望是無法滿足的吧，所以人都要變得漸漸無情，要懂得理智，要懂的邏輯。幾年前，我會為音樂癡狂，會為它而哭，會為他而開心，然而現在，我迷路了。

很多時候我會説服自己說做這些事情會對自己好，認識多一點這個世界，理解多一點東西。可能這些想法是來壓抑自己的感情，真正自己。説實在的，我已經對很多事物麻木了，完全沒有感覺，或是控制自己不去感覺。可能是我不想再讓自己體驗到離別的痛苦，可能。。很多的可能，只是自己為自己找理由。

在坐飛機來美國的十四的小時裏，看了張學友的專訪，忽然，我哭了。當時我很確定我知道我爲什麽而哭，但說真的，我現在怎麽想，都想不起來爲什麽我會眼紅。

逃避，是麻木自己的一條路。

我覺得我已經不想面對真實的自己了。好朋友來香港看我，如果是以前的我，我一定會很感動，然後很激動的為他們做很多事，然而我不是。我變了。我很驚訝爲什麽我會冷靜，是我們之間疏遠了嗎？可能。但我很確定的是，我麻木了。

在香港這兩年，確實交到了很多朋友，但是在最後一天，有很多人是在我今生不可能再見到的人，離別時，很多人哭了，但我沒有。我多麽想哭出來，但是我沒有。我也很想像其他人一樣，哭得稀里嘩啦，很想把我的心情，我的情緒放出來，但是我沒有，然而，很多時候，我根本不是很想哭。我麻木了。

我不斷的説服自己說現在的科技如何發達，朋友不會那麽容易失去聯絡的。但是，另一面卻是，朋友永遠不可能像以前‘朋友’那種的定義了。

人生有得就有失，是哲理，但說多了，我的我對很多事情已經沒有自己的想法，或不想去想，反正有得就有失。慢慢的對很多事情，就沒有感覺了。我麻木了。

我現在很明白轟轟烈烈這詞的解釋了，我很想轟轟烈烈一番，但是真的好像已經無能爲力了。我是真的麻木了嗎？還是我長大了？

我看我寫的太多了，這裡的每一段，我都可以寫一個很長的文字出來。我真的麻木了。

是否曾經聼着擁有很多回憶的歌曲，靜靜的坐在暗淡的光下，平靜的面對自己？是否真正成長，還是只是麻木了？是否是真的自己，還是看得到很多不同的面具？

人的一生中，可以說是有很多無奈，有很多逼不得已，是社會嗎？還是只是自己的藉口？逃避？

如果一個人，他一生都是與世無爭的人，沒見過很大的困難和挫折，他幸福嗎？
人的本性是善良的，也是快樂得，只要有奶吃就可以了，然而，成長之後，是貪念嗎？我們認爲快樂是要尋找的，是要經歷痛苦的。。

哎，我又在理智上面講話了，確實，很難可以讓真正的我站出來，面對一切。前面的文字，確實是我，但是慢慢的，我又回到理智和無情的判斷和思想的思維上面來了。我真的麻木了。

總而言之，我真的好想轟轟烈烈一囘，真的好想放下面具，真的好想。。。。

我麻木了嗎？還是我真的長大了？

19 years of life

A beautiful afternoon, clear sky, cool breeze, superb view from the window. I dont really feel like birthday after all. At least now what I want is not everybody celebrating my birthday. I would rather stay put and enjoy what nature has gave us, rather than taking the world to myself on this birthday.

19 years, not too long, not too short too. Lots of things happen, but the most important thing is that I grew up.

From HK, to Sg, back to HK, now to US. Life is a journey, a long journey. You cant really control the destination because you dont really see it, but you can enjoy the scenery throughout the trip. Lots of ups and downs, but now I really learnt to open my mind and accept everything. Because the more things you hold in your mind, the more you would struggle in this everchanging place. So I just let go of my barriers, accept whatever that is happening around me. That way makes life easier and pleasant.

I count myself really lucky, being a super lazy guy from a quite well known school in Singapore, to a super great school in the world in HK, to this famous, well known and nice and beautiful college here in US. I should thank everyone that make this happen.

From parents, family to all the friends that I have known so far. THANK YOU for coloring my life!

蜗牛

词曲：周杰伦

该不该，搁下重重的壳，寻找到底那里有蓝天。
随著轻轻的风轻轻的飘，历经的伤，都不感觉疼。
我要一步一步往上爬，等待阳光静静看著它的脸。
小小的天，有大大的梦想，重重的壳裹著轻轻的仰望。
我要一步一步往上爬，在最高点乘著叶片往前飞。
任风吹乾，流过的泪和汗，总有一天我有属於我的天。

Although I do not know where I am climbing to, I haven have a goal that I would like to reach, but I will carry on to experience life! Enjoy life to the fullest!

Be optimistic! XP

Seen Mammy (sk's blog)..sorry for leaving further..but..watever the case..I will try to communicate more to you all guys back there..and really hope that I could go back there someday..

As for wy's blog..I think I have seen something like selling your bike to come to HK..thank you very very much, I know rubbish really saved a lot of $$ to come to HK to visit me..seriously..after like 8 months..I still wanna say very thank you..and I really enjoy those days..

Maybe you all think that I am rich..can travel so far..well..just want to say..I am not that rich as you thought..I think back till then, quek wl should be richer than me as I got to know..but seriously..it is just not money when it comes to traveling and studying abroad..

Well..the most that I really want to thank is my parents, I think this is the first time I am actually realizing this..I seriously count myself lucky that I am all the way here, enjoying another kind of education while most of you are choosing between streams and courses and give a curse to someone when you could not get into any course/uni..I just wanna express my point that my parents really do save a lot of money and care a lot about my education instead spending on other stuffs they like..and also I do realize that I am lucky to have financial aid that covers over 75% of my cost here in the US..watever the thing is, I seriously wish that you all have the chance to travel and live in somewhere else, pardon me for being a little rude to this following comment: I think that sg is a great place to live in when you turn like 70++...but when young..grab any chances to go out of sg..there is much more you can see in the world beyond sg..

I am now in the most northeastern side in US..where senior bush is living i think..the weather here is really really excellent..not more than 27 degrees in the noon and lower than 19 in the night...clear blue sky..really really nice place..I really think I am lucky..I seriously thank my parents..ThANK YOU MUM AND DAD!!..

talk to me more on facebook la!..

Trap in US, surrounded by US ppl..feel not that good..

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人
正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的十分
不过渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我并吞
wo
你不在
当我最需要爱
你却不在 wo
无尽等待像独白的难捱 wo
你不在
高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来
但你不在不在
时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人份
你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说得对
我不得不承认 wo
你不在
当我最需要爱
你却不在 wo
无尽等待像独白的难捱 wo
你不在
高兴还是悲哀
你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来
但你不在 wo
那些摇摆我都明白都明白
但你不在爱已不在不在
你不在
当我最需要爱
你却不在 wo
一个人分饰两角的恋爱 wo
你不在高兴还是悲哀
你都不在 wo
像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱
你不在
当我需要你的爱
你不在

i think that the lyrics is nice..meaningful..especially the first phrase..
当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人
正在等下一个绿灯
aii..i will try to get out of my own comfort circle..but..do the americans understand?

Lunchtime

Recently during lunch break, (the most relaxing time of work)
I sat in a super overcrowded foodcourt, alone, quietly tasting my food.
There were dozens, many, tons of students with blue uniform sitting around.
true..there are several schools wearing blue uniform around that area, but it reminds me of another thing.

It reminds me of myself. The once blue uniform I wore, appearing in foodcourts with frenz..
Thats is wat it reminds me of..

But..It is true that I have grown up alot!
In the past, I find it 'lonely', or 'awkward' to sit around alone in an overcrowded foodcourt. When everyone around me has a partner to chat to during meal time, I find myself 'left out' in the environment..
So, I rarely eat alone in the past..very rarely.. especially in public areas..
kind of childish huh?

hahaz..but now..instead..I really could sit alone, sharing table with a table of 3 other ppl (who are frenz and chatted loudly, ignoring my presence), and enjoy.
enjoying everything that is happening.
This should be something that an old man would do!!
well..I am an old man now?

Google!

http://www.google.com/jobs/lunar_job.html

http://www.google.com/romance

http://www.google.com/googlegulp

Just look at Google, a dominant search engine that emerged in this millennium and took over the world throughout the years..

Still, they can still joke around as if the world is their toy for them to toy around.

There are tons of google plug-ins that are extremely useful.

Needless to say, I am a Google freak now.
From Google desktop, to google web accelerator...

Everything online has something linked to google.

Yahoo has just announced the change of CEO and hope to catch up google.

However, I think it is not possible, at least for the next 3 years or so.

Because google really created too much convenience for us!

寧夏

寧靜的夏天，天空中繁星點點...

Try lying down and the picture in front of your eyes is nothing but dazzling stars.
The only torch that shines the ground is the full moon.

With sporadic gentle breeze, it is the best time to reflect on your life, yourself...

Try doing this, and ask yourself what you truely want in life?
Great job? Money? Enjoyably life? Life without worries?

I have been doing that for the past 2 years..
I reflect on almost anything...What I have learnt, how I have changed..

I've opened my mind throught these years..
Yes I dearly missed those days...those days spent carefreely..



Those good days are behind me...Always kept in my heart, in my mind...
A force/power to push me forward is also those good days..
I look forward and walk forward..Towards the goal that I have been dreaming..
Exploring the world!

p.s. Upon changing to a new template...hahaz..I dont know how to put on the tagboard..Someone rescue me before I figure myself!..XD

welcome to paradise!..this is the place that i went last week!

Happy New YEar!

1stly..This christmas is the toughest christmas ever..a lot of essays to write..and proofread...and edit..really very busy!..

Nevertheless!...rubbish left its waste in Hong Kong!..They contributed to the Hong Kong economy and causing the stock market to rise high! A very memorable stay with rubbish for a week!...really felt like a rubbish again!...thanks man..i apologize sometimes i had my essays on mind and wasnt into the mood!...but..i hope u all really enjoy the trip!

and furthermore!..thanks mammy a lot for that beautiful and wonderful work of art!..work appreciated!=]

tata for now...gotta slp!...

人在世上是快樂重要一點，還是學問重要一點？

快樂和學問，似乎是毫不相干的兩個東西，可是最近我發現並不是如此的。它們之間有著非常微妙的關係，甚至可以說他們幾乎分不開的。

有人認爲追求學問就是一種快樂，

Calculate Elaticity of demand??

multi-linear regression?

WORK that can kill me softly and gently..

no idea wat am i talking abt?...i have no idea too...

these days are seriously too stressful

i miss those days of sec sch...i miss those days where i can slack..i miss those days

i seemed to be disintegrated from sg..i look/sound never sg again...thats me now...nvm...i am still lyoe..i still continue to crack lame jokes whenever i can..although i seldom do so now..everything in my brain is like tonnes of cement..

its not very hard/difficult to do my work now..it is just the workload..7 days...typing over 10000 words on comp..facing the comp for over 40 hrs...yes..i am finally complainin...

i am sorry that i haven been really updating my blog for the past YEARS..apologies..
many of you dont really know wat is happenin to me..or wat am i actually doing..

maybe is my laziness overwhelming..or maybe i just cant be bothered to write..

when i need someone to talk to~~i think of you all..however..it is not the same anymore..we all have separate lifes for almost 2 years..in these 700++ days..each day is a change to all of us..

i just miss............

Am i turning into a machine?

Yess I am!!

some STEEP stairs to climb there...and some nice sun set!!

some nice palace and some ugly gigantic rubbish dump where there is children and families living there!!

Some pic of the cambodia trip...i know its late..hahaz...but this is how cambodia looks like...will have more more very very soon

sudden urge to write smth...since long time never update...well...life here, you could say, had jus begun....

cos..sch life for the first year has jus ended...all the seniors graduating and leaving us...seriously, i cried on the night of graduation where the atmosphere is full of sadness and tearing...did not believe how can i cry out...well...maybe i just cant bear them leaving...just as the same as when i was leaving singapore...hmmm...that feeling once more in my heart...

time passes so fast...really...throughout this year...i have learnt one very impt thing...is that true frenz remain true frenz in the world...while others so called buddies or you always stick with...will not always be your frenz in the future...seriously...now i dont care whether how the world look at me...i just know that there is a bunch of true frenz back in singapore that will support my decision no matter what decision i make (of cos not to die lah...hehez...)

i feel that my style of treating ppl has changed quite a lot...i still treat ppl gdgd...but in a different sense of gdgd...dono how to say...well...nvm...

basically...now is hols...but no diff from sch days...i still have a 9 days trip to china organized partly by me...ahaz...den to teach summer courses and earn money..den doing some other homeworks stuffs...which is all super busy...i cant really have the time to visit back there..which i hope to...now even a few days..now timetable for me seemed to be packed and full...haiz...nvm...watever...

hahaz..jus to say a few words here...i missed you all guys although it is already one year haven seen you all...but i just feel that you all haven left me in my heart!heez...

jus came back from a nice trip organized by me to Cambodia....it was burnin hot at 38 degrees...yeah...and we did quite a lot of things there...visitin, playin, eatin..

haiz...but why things happened so fast....now is like suddenly my best frenz in this sch all have partners...in 3 DAYS...no kidding...all of them...well...the best frenz are not a lot in num...but seriously...

it is too fast...
now everynight i jus kept myself in my room...waiting for some joy or someone to come in and have chats with me...

feel terrible...no one i can find and chat with now...gonna start searchin for one all over again?...haiz...

and the most terrible thing is...i kept dreamin of those frenz back in Sg...a lot of scenes appeared and u all appeared in front of me...but i jus cant talk and u all seemed to not notice me...

well...maybe this is the case...watever...haiz

and the next thing is i have dreamt of saxophone for several times and even tried puttin the mouthpiece into my mouth!...but no sound came out no matter how hard i blow....
for a NUMEROUS OF TIMES

feels so sad...i am like no one could really talk to right now...the only way is to not feel to much but to work more....will that help?

no one knows...haiz...how i wish...

To: mammy Sinkuan Chua
thx lots...lol...:P
I really wanna say thank u cos wat u said really meant a lot for me...
seriously...Thank u for understandin me although we are soo far apart...:)
arigato...
i maybe could not be wat am i now if u did not force me to tuition!?!?or for ur mammy's food or ur vcds..kekez...
maybe it is jus fate that i m in this situation now...well...i shld learn n take it...complainin is jus use for releasing my unhappiness...
watever it is...u should try to stay happy too no matter wat happens becos u have an international frend like me:P
hahaz...
arigato...
MISS U LOTZZ...:]
ur son...lyoeeee

Loneliness

jus had chat with frenz in msn...haiz...does ppl need a partner when they are lonely??

YES...of cos..

perhaps i m used to be lonely...

from young...adults surronded my life...no kids of same age...no one to play with..

soo...i treasured frenz a lot...maybe i shld say more then my family...

but...my family alwaes gave me a 'threaten'---that i will go back to hk in days later...

sooo...i admit...i have the thinking of socialising less and making less frenz so that when i leave...there will be less pain...

but it is proved wrong..

the less ppl i socialise with..the more close i m with the grp of frenz i alwaes hang out with...

this make it more pain...

i admit...i cried a lot when making the decision of leaving singapore to hk to study...

basically...my father sort of begged or properganda me to go back...

but for the of frenz that accompanied me all the way...i resisted...

hmmm...but in the end i made the choice...because the feeling of without a home of my own makes me shiver...

but the feeling of losin frenz is equally bad...

i admit i hate tryin to mix into a bunch of frenz that are already known each other well enough...

i hate squeezin into a grp of ppl who r already a grp...

but i have to that...no choice...if not i have no frenz...

so i did that...regardless of watever unknown topics that they are talking abt...

i tried to make frenz...

but it is hard to keep the frenz in singapore...

very hard..and i cant really get close to them anymore thru msn...

family??well...not really gd...have u ever experience that when u wake up...ur family is gone to a barbeque or an outin without u jus becos u like to slp...

ha...thats wat i did experienced...

well...family gatherings are always boring...becos my whole family expect me to be the same guai guai kid as before..

listen to watever they say or command...

but i m not~!!!soo i kept quiet...wat else can i do...object their views??

never am i goin to it....

sooo..now i realise that loving a person is not onli abt the feel...

it is more than a feel...

does the other part willin accompany u thru the lonely days??

will he/she support u??

will he/she................

Happi new year everyone...Hmmm...wonders if anyone still remember my blog??

haiz...loneliness...This is wat i have been facin all my life..

i agree...sec sch days are not quite lonely..at least there are frenz like rubbish and band ppl and sax...

but it cant last forever...

trapped in the world of loneliness...trying to find something that saves me...

perhaps love??

haiz...perhaps love is a nice movie...wonderful...cool...

but...in reality...wat is love...how do u know when u love someone...

indeed...feelings will dampened after days...no matter how pretty or perfect the other part is...

maybe in the society...ur partner will be by alwaes by ur side...will alwaes support u...

haiz...never mind...i m used to be by myself...facing every and any problems by myself...

used to the feeling of emptiness and loneliness...

life still needs to carry on...with these feelings inside me~~~

phew....1stly....merry xmas n happy new year lar~~~
dont really think that any1 will read this...
hahaz..
welll....
life here is sooo fast and busy...
lots of work, things to do...
haiz...cant really have time to stop n think...

hmmm....recently found out that my singaporean accent is totally gone...
at least for 90%
wat the hell..
i have no belonging now...
where do i belong???
hk???
nono....i am so different from hk ppl...
den singapore??
nono....i m so different from ppl there now...
haiz...
i m alone in my island...
living in the culture i created myself...

y?!?!?!
y m i so no sense of belongin...
haiz....now frenz from singapore are floating away...
cant really get close to them thru msn lor~~~
haiz...
frenz in my sch now are quite close....
but...
i still miss the people in singapore...
wat can i do!~~~
everyone there has their own life...
n time will wash away the memories of me in their minds...

its hard tryin to make new frenz in a totally new atmosphere...
with ppl ard u havin their on circle of frenz...
haiz...its really very tiring tryin to figure out wat m i already...
i m jus a normal person...maybe more lonelier den a normal person...
wonderin ard the world to find smth out there which i have not defined yet...

never mind~~~
off to celebrate xmas ba~~~

Last day of holidays.......
phew...finally...end of holidays for mi....
from last november 19th to now....sept 3th...
near to a yr sia...
startin school tomorrow...
hahaz...yes...sunday start sch...
y??cos every student n teacher is live in the school one...
so sunday evenin go in den slp den start a new day next day...
hahaz...

now feelin quite calm liaoz lahz...
from the feelin of goin to USA compared to now...
reali quite a lot of difference...
hmmm...i shld be in sch now if i am in USA...

well...
an anouncement 1st...
'ding-dong-bong-boom!!!!'
'ATTENSION ALL READERS/FRENZ/HUMAN BEINGS...IF U R COMIN TO HONG KONG THIS END OF YR...PLS TELL MI...I WISH TO SEE U ALL LEHZ...
TELL MI BEFORE HAND HORZ....E-MAIL MI...OR TAG THE BLOG...
BTW....I AM ONLI HAVIN HOLIAYS ON THE LAST 2 WEEKS OF DEC...'
hahaz..

one more secret abt the disneyland in hk now...
its very small!!!!
they r buildin more n extendin the size of it now...
maybe every yr add a few items to make it bigger...
but it is small...
n sure a lot of china ppl come down n see one...
haaz...
dere still got signs tellin ppl not to spit on the floor..!!1
cos china ppl alwaes 'kor----pui!!'one...hahaz..

alright...
i may not come online often when i got into sch liaoz...
cos my laptop haven came yet...hehez...
will come after mid-atumn festival lahz...
den i can come online n chat or even video cam...hahaz..

n last of all...
HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO ALL SEPT PPL!!!!(which includes mi as well...)
hahaz...

happi schlin to all of u...
happi schling to mi.....

Happy Rubbish Day

Have U ever have a bunch of frenz tt spend their night with u?
Have U ever have a bunch of frenz tt will clean ur hse for u?
Have U ever have a bunch of frenz tt go seoul hse n fry their rice n egg n make a mess out of it...
Have U ever have a bunch of frenz tt will share ur troubles n souls with?

Well...i m proud to say "I HAVE!!!"
i hope is not "I HAD"

Today is offically celebrated rubbish day...
although it is the 3rd yr from 2002 ba...

we r formed by sittin in a corner...
swayin left n right durin lessons...
signin fen4 everywhere on papers...
cuttin each others pants n pushin each other down the chair...
doin projects at wm hse n ended up playin instead...

den grdually spilt into different classes...
but still we went for movie sesions often to keep close...
finally Turn Left Turn Right...we all sic went together to watch...
Very memorable...
the 1st n last movie we all went together...
dono whether is the last...but at least last for now ba...
went to walk IMM deserted part durin night time...
went to muti-storey carpark n talk...
talk photos take videos tt may nv happen in tvs...

lotz of memories tt i cant really recall in a instant...
but often appear in my dreams i admit...haiz...
i hope rubbish will remember a lot more scences upon seein this....
there is so much so much to write abt...but dono what to write...
probs we went thru 2gether??rubbish we talked?

really alot alot of things to write...

6th one....kao lan one...
hmmm...dis one dono when his hair can be straighten...hahaz...
suanin ppl the best...dono whether his saliva is make of...
hahaz...but watever...dis pic is so rare...
his photos alwaes is kao bei face one...rarely can see him smile so brightly...
super rare...
well...he is a very very gdgd fren....
quite pessimistic lahz...but got rubbish with him he is better liaoz le...
well...went thru his saddest moments with him...can feel his sadness tt time...
he is the greatest enemy of sleepin beauty...
cos he is the unsleepin beast...haahz...
he can whole week slp for less then 10 hrs...can u believe tt..
quite thoughtful n mature one lahz...alwaes talk abt chim chim things de...
still remember tt time he send one chim chinese poem...den i reply in chinese poem to him too...hahaz...
his language nth to sae man...so great...
not onli chinese he can fight wif mi in sec 2...his english oso so chim...hahaz...
a gd language-ist...
all the best to u my fren...
may we stay in contact!!!!!

5th one...the huge guy...
well...finally to this huge guy...hahaz...
i have written a lot abt him in his frenzter liaoz...
hahaz...but still wanna sae...
really thank u for ur accompanies....!!!!!!
i miss it alot!!!
i really noe tt dis kinda of days will never happen anymore...
but thank u...
for teachin mi bball...for singin with mi...for playin guitar with mi...for almost everythin when i m livin alone in singapore...
tt time u r almost my everythin!!!seriously...if one day don see u i will feel quite sad lehz...hahaz...
missed every single thin lahz...
ur cookin...watchin tv...walkin along orchard or malls...eatin in hawker centers...eatin haaaaaam...pronouce as haaaaa-m....which is clams lahz...hahaz...
miss the carpark...miss the givin out flyers at the same time avoidin ur papa...
miss the days u cant slp...miss the days we studied in sciece center mac...or my hse...
watever things we went thru...love probs, frenz prob, my band prob, family prob...
thank u...
we r so close cos of distance oso ba...u live so near mi...
meet everyday...
work hard...gambatde....!!!

4th guy...the wall...
hmmm....not much to talk abt him lahz...
cos he oso don talk much de...
alwaes like to stare into blank space...hahaz...
so we all call him the wall...
very strong n muscular by now ba...
hahaz...NCC de...alwaes hang out with his Ncc mates those days...now maybe noe how to go out with gals liaoz...
but the rubbish without him oso will feel something missin like tt like tt...
cos his appearance will like make we all very happy one...hahaz...
always a guai kid...mum oso guan him very tight...hahaz...even midnight oso come n pick him up in my hse..hahaz...
well....really hope tt u don forget rubbish lahz....
really hope u don forget mi too...
wish u the best....

2nd one...haiz...cant see clearly him...cos he nv give mi his single shot...hahaz...
neh...the one the most left one...wear red shirt one...
hahaz...he is the 2nd brother...
one word...
quite pervert lahz...hahaz...
alwaes sae some dirty jokes one...sometimes really will be really really funny one...
haiz...some misunderstandings along the way...but now okay liaoz lahz...hahaz...
really miss him...he is the one tt accompany mi into the band...cos we tt time noe don have chinese orchestra...so no choice...join band...
oso we r from the same orientation grp...
he is oso the one who i bathed with...haahz...
he is oso the 1st one who never sit a plane b4 n sat with mi when the plane depart...
still remember the day we alwaes eat 30 cent chicken rice for lunch...
hahaz...save money mahz...
haiz...a lot of memories with him lahz...gd luck n hope can alwaes stay ine touch k?

now for members intro....1stly Dis is Da Ge... Hmm...sissy sometimes lahz... But really responsible person... Trustworthy...fun...lame...joker...like to act handsome...hahaz...watever...a nice guy... overall...gettin more n more mature n sensible liaoz lahz...hahaz....
see him as a big brother always...haahz...
i hope we can still keep in touch...

Not leaving, far far away???
weird??
strange???
y suddenly not leaving, far far away???

'life is jus like a box of chocalate...u nv noe wat u'll get'
'life is jus like tv drama, unbelievable, crazy n mad'
ah ha!!!
yah...
tml de plane is none of my buisness liaoz...
i can go see the plane fly...
but without mi in it!!!!

hehez....:):):)
u noe y???

hahaz...
back on thrus evenin around 5 like tt...
my father was outside...
recieves a call....
den immediately called mi at home...
y??

cos
THE SCHOOL IN HONG KONG ACCEPTED MI!!!!!
PLUS SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!
hahaz...
really like tv drama ba...
but not...
hahaz...
real life...
dis means tt u all can find mi in hk for nxxt few yrs liaoz!!!!
hahaz...
no more USA...
no more day & night difference!!!
so cool!!!!

well...its late now...
gonna update sooner...
for more details...

lastly...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAKIM!!!!!!!
hopes he gets to see it....
i am soooo sweet...
midnight le still wish him happy birthday...
hahaz...
FORGET MI NOT!!!! k?
not onli hakim lahz....
all of u whu reads my blog!!!!!
hehez

Leaving, far far away
Jus to say...
I am takin the plane on 8th August to Usa, Dallas...
Bon voyage for me....
Haiz....
Well...
an extra information...
u all can find my school in the page of friendster where u all log in there...
there is a list of schools on top of the log in place...
find Texas state...
my school is called Dallas blah blah Community College--Brookhaven College...
Haiz...
N...
all of the ppl there r at least 2 yrs older den mi....
youngest of all...
haiz....

Title-less

Why do i call this title-less...cos i am goin to write a super borin n long entry today...

1st of all...A sentence in chinese...Hope u all can read it...
"人生总是渴望自己所得不到的东西，但是却永远都不会满足"(Use Unicode UTF-8)


Well...this is wat i had read from a storybook....

Indeed...It is very true...Human beings are thrivin for a lot of things...galfren, money, results, watever....

Wat inspires mi to write this???hmmmm....

Recently found some documents my father is sortin out....The title is " Immigration to Canada"!!!!

Kao!!!Migration again!!!!

Why again???Cos i migrated b4....To Singapore...

Long time ago...My parents were scared tt HK will fall under the rule of China after 1997...Sooooo....Singapore is not a bad place...Hmmmm...still can study English horz....

Den tataa...i came to Singapore n Study...great...jus when all the applications of the forms r accepted....den suddenly my father recieves a job!!!in HK...yes...

So...The situation changes to mi n my mum come to Singapore...n my father stay in HK to work...hmmmm....tt was when i was around 3 ba...

Time flies...1997 over...HK was not as bad as many had predicted...still very gd wat...but for mi...Singapore became a home for mi....Studies, family...

yah...great...but my father still found jobs continously in HK...so...His time in Singapore in total is estimated less den 2 yrs while i live in Sg more den 10 yrs.....

Yah...den dono wat my mum wanna go back...Hell lots of reasons...okay....go....At yr 2002...

I was sad of cos...leavin 2 old grandparents took care of mi...felt so bored n sad tt time...

Den recently my dad told mi tt he was wrong makin this mistake of migratin to Sg...Cos he sight is not as far blah blah....

Y??Cos he hope tt life in Sg is gd...At least better den HK tt time...den went there n found out some places not very gd lahz...not perfect lahz...hey...no place is as perfect as ur imagination!!!

Yes...A mistake of migratin to Sg...den is oso a mistake for mi to meet all the frenz there???haha...funny...

So migration to Sg was a failure....

Now Canada???...Same situation...my dad is jobless now...i oso dono wat HK future lahz...Does it mean tt goin to Canada he will find a job???A great place to enjoy their old days???think again...They never went to Canada b4...onli heard from frenz mouth like how gd is Canada lahz...

hahaz...i dont care aniwae...Cos i will be in USA...for the next few yrs at least...


Songs of memories

Recently jus borrowed "Turn left Turn right" Soundtrack....

Memories like planes flew into my mind....

The 1st time 6 rubbish gathered to watch this movie...Bought a keychain from House of Horror with Wei Min's name....

Standin in Cineleisure watchin Stefenie Sun's MTV 'Yu Jian'

Living on my own in dec holidays...Listenin to 'Yu Jian' alone at home when outside have heavy downpour...quite romantic...for myself....

Went to Sentosa class chalet...Walk along the beach talkin on handphone cos Ermm someone called mi...quite long talk..till Wl Sook hui they all kept scoldin mi 'Phone bill no need money ah'...played with my phone while Wei Liang, Kai quan, Sookhui, Dexter, lIn hui they all went to play in the sea...

Sentosa again with my Sax section...fruit salads, mac sauces for sausages....stayed on the float till i died up...enjoy 'wonderful' water performance by my section...played soccer in the rain with colby n daniel...Colby's ball floated away n was never found!...'truth or dare, r u cold?'...pullin ppl up to the float i was at...

Bought my new phone...3100...

Went to Fabian auntie house with him n alan...clear the house of orange cockroaches for 50 dollars...

Went to 'slack flyers giving' with Wei Liang n Kai quan...for 50 dollars too...

Rubbish Gatherings in my house where Wei Yuan broke another leg of my broken table...fought for a round cushion...went to yahoo seacrh for 'pic'...den came out a lot of pornsites...'jus one click away'...

Hub performance for Chirstmas....ugly performance...

Sook hui, Aidil, Colby, Fangling sending mi to airport to HK...

A lot of ppl came to fatch mi from the Airport i returned!!!includin Mr Tan...

Yah...basically this song reminds mi of things tt happen after my SYF...especially in the holidays..

So..this may considered to be a wuper wonderful n great song of these yrs ba???


Hmm....nowadays i have been redin up blogs...Of cos read lahz...but not recently ones....is those tt was written super long time ago...hmm...


life is like a bottle of bubbles. when u blow d bubbles, sum may burst. treat these burst bubbles as ur unhappi moments in life. when dey, burst u wil 4get abt dem n juz continue blowing bubbles.ur happi moments shall b those tt do not burst. even if dey burst, u juz continue bowing 4rm d bottle in ur hands. juz like life where u wil hafta continue moving on even if u meet with sum setbacks. time wil nvr eva wait 4 u. u onli haf urself 2 blame 4 the mistakes u make in life. u r in control of ur life. no one else is. dun eva let anibody affect d decision u make in ur life. onli u haf the power 2 do so. if u continue 2 allow ppl 2 make decisions 4 u, u shall nvr eva b happi. enjoy life 2 the fullest while u can. u nvr noe wat may happen the next dae

Taken from Sook hui's blog...Original idea by Mi...hehez...read this suddenly den realise how wise am i...hehez...this bubble theory...

here is an upgrade version of it....

life is jus like weather...forcastin is jus like those old uncles sittin along the roadside wantin to see ur future???
true???
NO!!!
U never noe wat weather u r goin to get the next second...Plan for next days activity???
can??
but next day's weather was not as u expected???
COMPLAINS!!!!
Life is jus uncertain as weather...
if u can enjoy watever weather in ur life...u r enjoyin life...
Compalin???Unhappy??
Yes can...Disappointments, Unhappiness jus come ard in life...
But u still can enjoy tt...Enjoy the disappointments n unhappiness...
Cos u will even more enjoy the Happy moments if u do tt...
Cant blow bubbles in stormy, windy rainy weathers???
NVM...Enjoy it...The rain, the wind...
It is jus the matter of ur mind...
Win ur mind...
Be optimistic...

"If u can enjoy every single LITTLE Things in ur life...U r enjoyin life"
Example----Catchin a movie with ur long time old frenz...walkin along a pathway with ur frenz talkin craps...eatin food by ur mum...
If u enjoy all these...U are enjoyin life!!!
there is no need for all Big Things to happen to enjoy...

All these is written for All of u...especially My dear rubbish fren Ah Tan(as wat KM calls him in his blog)
I am not sure wat is happenin to u tt u r shuttin down ur blog..but i truely give u all my blessings...


International gatherings

I now strongly believe tt Someday....

Someday in the future...

WE all could make gatherings in the follow ways...

"Hello"
"Eh...u Where now?"
"In XX country lahz...why??"
"(Rubbish/class/section/band/frenz etc) gathering on XX/XX/20XX"
"ok...i free...wat time??where??"
"eh...see ur plane lahz...in XX internation airport/hotel"
"go for wat??"
"tour lahz...gather lahz..."
"...."
"...."

Hahaz...Sort of daydreamin horz...But i really want it to come true...sounds so cool n great...

hahaz...watever...my hse the keyboard now Siaoz liao...go online cannot type one...hahaz...hack...now in library...so typed such a lot...phew...hands so tired...

well...recently a lot of time for mi to read books...paly music...n think....haiz...cos my sis now finish exam liaoz...so everyday jus stick infront of comp...is like i sit there a while to check mail oso cannot...haiz...
recently i begin to realise(or self-convice) tt i go to USA may jus be like tourist touring around there...well...basically is becos...a lot of ppl whu went to study there b4 told mi that studyin there is jus like havin fun...there is very little stress...indeed...under so much talks(brain-washing)...i begin to believe tt studuyin there is a simple job to do...
so why study there??y dont i find some place with competition so tt i can improve myself more?
well...to be frank...i have been livin in my own world this few months..dono wat i tinkin lahz...
i am not goin there to escape from the stressful life in asia's education...no....never...
instead...i am goin there to gain more experience...yes...experience...well...a person with experience will be more mature...at least to mi yes lahz...
wat is the use of studyin sooo much n in the end wat u know is jus studyin??in other words...wat is the use of gettin into wat wat super duper sch den in the end u r jus a machine tt produce correct answers??
a gd certificate gives u a gd secure of money flow...tt is true..i mus sae...but wat is a gd certificate??wat is enough to be a gd certificate in this world rite now???

rite now...i am quite used to be all by myself now...i can don even talk a whole complete sentence for almost whole day...why???becos now my my grandparents r here...livin with us in a small stupid hse...n of cos their questions r jus borin...i m jus bein bored by dem...n rite now i m crazily borrowin cds back from library...cos it is free!!so i jus borrow wtever i tink tt would be appeasin to my ears...hahaz...jus luckily borrowed the return of the king soundtrack...cool!!!i loved it...

alrite...i found dis star on tv...well...it some kind looks like ANGELA CHAN...hahaz...i forgot dis star name liaoz...found it on news report...hahaz...but quite represnt ANGELA CHAN...around 80% ba...on the 1st look...hahaz...

n dis is the pic where the head is bein cut off numeral times!!!!hahaz....

chee wee in a moody mood...!!!

dis is eng hong when he die!@!!!hehez....

n sin kuan was the mmother!!!!AHHHH!!!hahaz....

dis was when wei yuan became a father!!!hahaz....

well...recently super stress lahz...like packin everythin to USA...haiz...anythin and everythin oso pack...

well...i begin to realise ppl around mi kept askin to study somethin tt can earn money in the future?!?!?my 1st answer in my heart to it is: wat the hell??
alrite lets see...
1st---wat is somethin tt can be learnt n can earn money???is it jus a certificate of wat wat graduate den u go in n work even though u no interest or will to do it...?n in the end u will jus complain abt it n can find so much flaws n excuse tt u can give urself...
2nd---is every1 as stupid as wat u tink they r??if they knew which course or studies could earn more money...den of cos...super competition will arise...it jus cause stress n stress again to human beings...haiz...pathetic man...even if someone don like it...for the sake of money...some ppl in the world jus go for it...n in the end...dis scence will repeat itself n ppl generations after generations will be under the control of tremendous stress again n again...haiz...
3rd---wat is wrong of studyin ur interest???u mean interest cant earn a livin for urself???well...den y is there so many artists in history die of art??a lot of artists r sooo into art but they jus cant be famous...in fact after dey die...their arts n paintings will be treasured...welll some ppl may tink:hahaz...stupid guy...die becos of art...don see any special abt thier drawings..cant they jus earn money for themselvs??heyhey...wat the hell...is there somethin wrong for ppl to persue their dreams n try to fulfill it...i tink tt they r so great man...

a lot of ppl tink tt the word "ART" is a word tt is onli to be done by the westerns...where they can do artistic things not onli in drawings but in music, paintings, dramas n watever kinds...most chinese tink tt dis is not the way to earn money...n will not bring you anywhere...

full of shit lahz...is money everything????yah of cos...without it ppl cant really live lahz...but for the sake of money,u have jus take somethin u have totally no feelings or interest??

yah i agree...i don tink i can live very long....cos human beings on earth is jus like havin a death sentence but u jus dono when....sorry lahz...i jus don have the tinkin tt: wah...i m still young...haven 20 yet...mus earn lots of money...so tt when i old tt time i can enjoy...dono why oso...

i oso believe tt those painters who died early...i feel tt they die with no regrets man...is jus they arent tt lucky enough...don sae painters lahz..sae some musicians we are more familiar with...Jay Chou, David Tao, Wang Leehom??welll u jus tink tt they r LUCKY enough to be so popular???earn so much money???well...if u tink tt way..i believe u r terribly wrong...how many artists in the entertainment circle are soo popular without any obsticles or hard work???jus sae Zhou Jie Lun Jay....i read once his detailed profile...well...b4 he was popular...the songs he written...onli Jacky Wu n HoKian singers take most of it...Andy Lau heard once den did not want it...a lot of singers oso don wan it...is it very bad???no one noes...but rite now...every1 is snatchin for his songs....is it jus lucky???no...he went thru so many obstacles of bein rejected so many times....n he still has a lot of confidence in his music...he still goes on...tts wat i like abt him...n the same for other singers who went thru all dis...dono lahz...dis is jus some tinkings of myself....ahhhh